Peep Show is about two damaged and broken souls, Miles and Bebe, who happen to meet under unique circumstances. I knew going into this story that it was going to be unconventional and possibly uncomfortable, but boy, I never expected what I got.
Let’s start with the characters. They are two of the most fucked-up MCs I’ve ever read. They start out by watching each other screw other people from their respective apartments across the street. OK then, they hardly know each other so whatever floats their boat, fine. Then they amp it up to phone sex and they both start to have feelings for the other. (Not sure why, especially since Miles is kind of a dick that constantly shuts down all of her advances in pretty rude ways.) So what does Miles do? He tells Bebe to expect a surprise and to be at her window for it.
At this point I’m super suspicious of his intentions because he’s got issues, and I was rightfully worried. The surprise? He has a threesome with some chick and her boyfriend, making Bebe watch them, knowing and enjoying her jealousy.
But what’s worse is that Bebe hangs the fuck around and watches despite her anger and jealousy and doubts about why he won’t touch her but feels the need to treat her that way.
Bitch! Get the fuck outta there. Show him the goddamn door or something. I don’t care if he’s got a huge dick and is oh so sexy or whatever, he’s an asshole that’s trying to push you away. Let him, because he doesn’t deserve you.
After that whole debacle, Miles turns from voyeur to stalker by going into her apartment while she’s incapacitated from drugs and alcohol, all on the pretense that her door is unlocked and he’s worried for her safety.
How fucking sweet.
Miles finds his anxiety and panic attacks increasing because he fears his feelings for Bebe. So what does Prince Charming go and do this time? Well, he tells Bebe to expect another surprise at 9pm that night.
She’s excited and dolls herself up thinking he’s going to show up. But nooooope. 9pm rolls around and two men she’s never met before show up on her doorstep, push their way into her apartment, gag her and force themselves on the unsuspecting Bebe. All the while, Bebe sees Miles watching the two men RAPING her from his window. [And it is rape, but the word is conveniently avoided to, in my opinion, make it more acceptable to the reader for Bebe to forgive Miles. Just because she gets wet doesn’t mean she wants it. She sobs and cries and fights back, but the author presents it as a kinky sex game and it pissed me off.] But Miles gets jealous that, you know, Bebe is
getting raped by fucking two other men. The men he sent.
Miles proceeds to beat the men to bloody pulps and tries to comfort Bebe. And. She. Lets. Him. And then? He finally screws her. Not even an hour after she was raped by two men he hired.
BTW, it’s never mentioned how Miles found these guys, but he certainly didn’t know them and it seems like he simply hired two strangers off the internet. Who fucking puts the woman they’re in love with at risk with two strangers just to convince themselves that they don’t care.
Being agoraphobic and having depression and anxiety is no excuse. He’s a monster.
The story was sorely lacking in logic, particularly when it came to the bleach bath sex scene. Yes, they fuck in a bathtub full of water and bleach.
I’m no chemist, but I do know that bleach is a caustic substance that erodes tissue and continues to long after contact. Now, can you imagine the damage fucking in a bleach bath would do to a mucosal body part such as a vagina??
The book should come with a DISCLAIMER: DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME.
Both Miles and Bebe have issues, but I wasn’t convinced that their histories realistically shaped their behaviors. Especially Miles’. His justifications for his actions are weak and I don’t think he was redeemable. At least the writing and editing were on point. And that cover… damn.
I need to go wash the filth off now.
I received an ARC in exchange for an honest review.